Moon

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim, Assalamualaikum

speaking of the moon

is it a mirror

to have a reflection on our acts?

or

is it an invisible friend

to let out everything on our chest?

either of them we choose,

usually depending on the mood.

Faziera K

Reflection

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim, Assalamualaikum

As you guys know, I'm currently taking a driving lesson and will have a license soon. I thought it was going to be easy because you just use the clutch, brake and a gas. Yes I take the manual instead of auto because it's way safer. I think too deep lol.

When I attend all of the 7 classes, I was actually doing really great. Parked correctly, reversed perfectly but when the day for the test came, I failed. I repeat, I failed. It broke my heart into pieces since I've already told my mom and promise myself to get a job after I passed so I can drive to work but The Almighty truly have His own plan.

I kept thinking why did suddenly I parked carelessly? Why didn't my car parked in the parking lot perfectly as I did before? I questions myself a lot and of course I frequently asked Him to give me the answer because I can find none.

A week later while I was filling in my planner, I came across a page with a quote,

"Allah will make everything beautiful at the right place, at the right time, for the best reason. Always have faith in Allah."

I swear that's really hit me hard. I lost my words. I feel like the time stop ticking. He really gave me the answer. I flipped to a random page and saw another quote,

"If you want something in your life and you aren't praying Tahajjud for it, then in reality you don't really want it - Syaikh Yasir Qadhi"

Ya Allah i feel so bad. So bad for questions too much and didn't realize what I should exactly do. Sometimes it took a few days, weeks, months and even years for Him to give you the answers. Or maybe there's already an answers but you just couldn't figure them out.

Before I leave, I'd like to remind you that whenever you feel low, negative, give up etc. please have some reflection on yourself to think of the answers and build a close relationship between you & Him/God no matter what your religion is because in the end, we will only have Him/God by our side.

talk soon x

Memory

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim, Assalamualaikum

So I was in a place just now and a memory came by. It was a day before SPM Addmath 2017 and there's an extra class in school. It's an open extra class so whoever wanted to come, they can.

Mrs C and I were sitting on a desk, taught me how to solve a question that I asked her. A teacher came by - I call her Mrs A. Of course, she wanted to met Mrs C. Before she left, she asked/told Mrs C something but I couldn't remember and for sure I remembered Mrs C replied her, "Yes she is. She's one of my daughter. I know she can do it. She can and will." Not gonna lie that's really makes me shut everything down. Focusing on her words. Replaying the sentence over and over again. Her voices running in my head. I was actually going to cry.

I looked at both of them - smiling. I didn't know what to do because I'm still in awe. Mrs A said, "Yes I'm pretty sure you'll do good and oh here it is. Good luck." While inserted her hand in her handbag, came out with a black pen and gave it to me. I was in shocked. And yes I still keep the pen - one of my favorite pen. Again, I almost cried but hold it on. Trust me, I'm not that kind of person who'll cry in public. Not once.

I said thank you. She smiled and left. Going back home, Mrs C's words were still on replay. You know that feeling when someone trusted and believe in you when you can't and you don't? I felt that. I lose hope. I was unmotivated. I was anxious. She trusted me even when I almost failed my addmath on my Trial SPM. Minus 2 marks and yes I failed. But Alhamdulillah I didn't. And because of that, I started to trust and believe in myself. I pray a lot to Him to ease everything.

3 months later, it was the day. I look at my own result. The second thing I focused on was my addmath. Alhamdulillah all praises to Him. It was my first time crying in public. I couldn't handle the tears and it bursted out like a waterfall. I cried a lot. My eyes and nose turned red. I swear it was the happiest moment in my life if I could bookmark.

All thanks to Him, Mrs C and Mrs A who trusted me, my parents, best friends and also thank you dear self for burning the midnight oil to get an unexpected result. You did great, congratulations. Alhamdulillah.

From what I've learnt, it was crucial to trust yourself. Trust even when you feel like you'll not make it and pray a lot. Insha Allah, if it's your rezk, He'll give it to you. Don't lose hope because I trust you. I hope my story inspired you. Thank you for reading and please ignore my grammar, sorry.

talk soon x